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| Valentine's Day approaches at ramming speed.
I'm sick of the constant bombardment of relationships. I'm not in one and thought it's mostly by choice, it still annoys me. And it's not like I'm getting any offers.
I prefer my vulgar expressions.
I want a giant, romantic display of LOVE, lust, want, passion, whatever. I want suprise, excitement, love. I want to fall for someone whose falling for me. Or at least to get asked out on a date by someone intruiging.
I know I just have to be patient, and I'll find someone really worth it, but there isn't anything I hate more than waiting. | | |
| I wish the weight melted off easier.
I've lost ten pounds since I started my diet forever ago.
I want to eventually lose at least 20 lb. By spring break. I will. Must keep eating well & working out. It will happen. It's just hard to stay motivated. No more brownies. Even the wonderful fat free ones with their 120 cals. My last was today. No more full fat cheese, no more icing, no more sausage, no more pesto, no more kung poa & no more friend chicken (chineese food). | | |
| I wish I could take back all the time I was desperate for my first kiss and my fist boyfriend. Of course the movies lie. It wasn't that special. I was 15. It was my first kiss with my boyfriend of two weeks, who was not a virgin, and I had to initiate it. Lame.
Of course. The boyfriend thing was a real letdown. I want a real one, yes. But I know better than to think it takes all the pain away. We're only as sad as we want to be. | | |
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FIRSTS
First best friend: Jackie I think.
First car: I'll get a car in December or Jan. knowing my dad it'll end up march before I set foot in any vehicle i can call my own
First break-up: i had some middle school stuff that fell apart but no official break up. I try to force someone to break up with me but end up breaking up with them. i think frankenstein.
First screen name: hotbabydoll82 i think.
First self purchased album: i have no idea.
First funeral: none yet
First pets: had a cat named sunny when i was a baby
First big trip: new Jersey when I was small
First music you remember hearing in your house: Springstein or the beach boys. tragic kindom and jagged little pill stand out too.
LASTS
Last car ride: mom took me to school
Last kiss: it was six months ago. i'll have to take the fifth thou
Last good cry: a month or so ago. I cry at least once every few week.
Last movie seen: Serenity
Last beverage: diet coke
Last food consumed: crappy school orange chicken
Last crush: as in not current? I can't remember.
Last phone call: um. Phan or my dad.
Last time showered: i take baths
Last shoes worn: my bc slip ons
Last item bought: food. green sweatshirt at alloy.com
FASHION/STUFF
Where is your favorite place to shop: american eagle, urban outfitters, & wet seal. variety is good
Any tattoos or piercings: ears. want to get a tatoo on my wrist, maybe bellybutton or tongue pierced but probably not
SPECIFICS
Do you do drugs: baby when I got you why would i need em ; ) (OMFG! I haven't made one of those m-fers in like forever. valley freakin girl)
What kind of shampoo do you use: stuff that smells like gummy bears, panteen pro v, and stuff from the salon from when my hair was dead from overdying.
What are you listening to right now: people talking in the library and tatu. ahh. i miss vegas so much. my sister don't wanna go during winter break. if only i was willing to break the six months rule.
Where do want to get married: late 20s if I get married
How many buddies are online right now: not on
What would you change about yourself: procrastinate less (like now) and be less stupid about people
FAVORITES
Color: sky blue/black/forest green
Food: pizza/reces/pumpkin pie
Boys' names: Holden
Girls' names: Amy/Alice/Gwen
Subjects in school: ap chem and ap lang
HAVE YOU EVER
Taken a bath with someone: when i was a baby. i am not a slut thank you very much.
Smoked: yeah
Made yourself throw up: yeah
Skinny dipped: when i was a kid
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: no. i don't stoop to that level
Pictured a crush naked: no.
Actually seen a crush naked: in a speedo. they don't leave much to the imagination.
Cried when someone died: no one's died
Lied: no. never. *rolls eyes* Obviously.
Fallen for your best friend: no.
Rejected someone: yes
Used someone: not intentionally
Done something you regret: a few things that matter
CURRENT
Clothes: athf shirt and jeans (gotta be comfortable since Im gonna be at school from 7 am (now 12) to 9pm)
Music: iPod. playlist: yams are good
Favorite artist: smashing pumpkins or no doubt
LAST PERSON
Hugged: cheer boy
You IMed: that was last night. too long ago.
ARE YOU
Open Minded: somewhat
Arrogant: very. but also insecure.
Interesting: amazingly. (see above)
Moody: a little
Hardworking: if i care
Organized: kinda
Healthy: yeah
Bored: always a little
Responsible: yes
Angry: not right now. but im an angry person. (angry at the world. angry at you. angry at society, ect, ect)
Sad: no estar or ser. I'm happy. kinda have a dark side but not "i'm depressed and i want to kill myself" dark
Disappointed: actually no.
Hyper: sometimes
Trusting: overly for my cynicism
Talkative: very
Legal: age is just a number. *laughs to death*
WHO DO YOU WANT TO
Kill: YOU! gah. jk. no one.
Slap: quite a few people
Talk to online: no one. the net is lame/
WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or Pepsi: diet coke
Flowers or candy: roses. then good choc
Tall or short: tall
Thick or thin: a little thiner than ave. too thin is majorly unattractive
RANDOm
In the morning I am: rushed. only have like 40 mins btween 6 & 640 (duh. you can subtract)
What do you notice on a person first: hair, face, body, clothes on girls. smile, eyes, face, hair, body on guys.
Last person you danced with: um. Julia at the back to school I think.
Who makes you smile: good music. good memories. choc. vegas. friends. good movies. (good things). reading my novel. lol.
Who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: funny can be good (crush) or bad (want to kill)
DO YOU EVER
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: no. I'm not a loser
Wish you were young: i'm 16. it's a nice age and you could not pay me to repeat last year. all that shit. some good. but mostly shit.
NUMBER
Of times I have had my heart broken: never i guess. it's been torn by ex friends but never by a guy. guys are dumb. (not in a lesbian kinda way. in an asexual kinda way)
Of hearts I have broken: I don't know. possible a lot. probably none.
Of boys I've kissed: not counting truth or dare? four.
Of girls I've kissed: two. one t or d. the other was just a weird show off to guys thing and also t or d.
Of continents I have lived in on: 1
Of CDs I own: somewhere between 20 and 80. i have no idea. | | | |
| garsh. sometimes. I need to get a hobby. This must be one of six xangas. Nothing wrong with that of course.
There's never anything to say anymore. I'm distraught. Tangled. Hollow. Caught on a barbed wire fense by the shirt I didn't even want to wear.
I go off topic. I get metaphorical. Deal with it...
Giddy. He makes me giddy. I will use that word. I don't need a knew word. Happy. Elated. Joyful. Wistful. Dreamy. Nostalgic. Smile.
Drink your bittersweet lies. Mmm. Ain't it finger lickin good? | | |
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